Thursday, February 19, 2009

Ever feel insignificant?

I am feeling insignificant lately.
I have a wonderful husband who loves me dearly.
He is my rock. He makes me feel wonderful and so very loved.

But here I stand. 12 days til I am due to give birth to my son.
I should be overjoyed. Anxious, impatient, and overjoyed. And most days I am.
But today, yesterday... I am weighed down with sadness.
I have not talked to my mom in over a week. I have three sisters who never call me. I have a best friend who has not called. I feel like the people who should be the most excited for me have completely forgotten me. They even post to eachother on Facebook, but nothing to me. Not even a "how ya feeling?" or "Can't wait til he's here" NOTHING. NADA. And it makes me feel so very unimportant.

It hurts. But it is nothing new. Just wishing my phone would ring, and tired of being the one to have to constantly do the reaching out.

If you read this, I would like to thank you for joining my little hormonal pity party. Now time to try to turn my focus on the many blessings in my life.


Anonymous said...

I'm sorry. That sucks that people you care about aren't more in tune with you at such a big moment in your life.

No one ever sends me messages on FB either. All I get are those annoying app things that you know everyone the person knows got too so you don't feel special at all.

Everyone feels like this at some point. You are not alone in it.

Marsha said...

WOW--I am so sorry. We had a ball seeing you the other day. Your nursery is beautiful. Your children are well adjusted and happy. I am sad your family doesn't want to be more involved in your life. It is their loss.

TigereyeSal said...

I've been aching for you lately- the end of pregnancy is sooo long and tough and difficult. I'm sorry your family and friends aren't more responsive. Your cyber-friends care- more than a little bit.